~teman tapi mesra~

teman tapi mesra???seorang kenalan yg rapat dgn kita selain sahabat/kawan....
saya ada teman tapi mesra nie...
setakat ni.....
saya mmg senang dgn perangai dia...
dia suka buat lawak...kdang kala msg dia mncuit ati...
dia ada stiap kali sya pelukn dia...
mlainkn dia bz..bz ngn stdy...jgn harap nak ganggu dia...
knpom xkn dlayan....
dia seorang pndengar setia...
dia bagi nasihat..dlm nshat da unsur lawak...
tu sbb sya agak SAYANG dia..ahahaha
kmi punya kisah cinta yg sama..
kalo da jodoh pasti akan bsama kn,
kalo xda pun xpa la..
jnji jdoh sbg kawan itu ada...
plng bez stiap mlm dia akn ingatkn saya kpd maha esa..
jgn lpa smbhyng k...
tu yg mnyentuh sanubari saya...
sejujur nya...bhs yg halus n penuh bmkna...

~tekanan~

jiwa ku saat ini sangat tseksa..
tlalu byk benda blaku mmbuat ku ttekan...
ia kelihatan MUDAH ttapi nak selesaikn perlukan pngorbanan...
ya pngorbanan...PERIT kn..pa kn daya itu lah kehidupan...
mslh ni bukan ku yg timbulkn,tp MEREKA..
mereka yg tseksa tp ku tak sggup nak lihat,
mmbuat ku rasa pa yg mereka rasa...
siang mlm mslh itu mnghantui ku..
ku TAK snggup mlht TITISAN ai mata trus mngalir,
sbb titisan ai mata mereka TIDAK layak utk org sperti itu....
tp spa la ku utk mnegur...
ku sedar ku xsempurna,
dsbbkn ktidak ksempurnaan itu mmbuat ku tseksa...

~hUh~

huh..satu keluhan yg sangat berat...
huh...satu perasaan yg sukar dgambarkn..
ku sangka panas bpjgan rupa nya hujan dsiang ari,
ku sangkakn ku telah sembuh rupa nya tidak,
mengapa n mengapa harus begini.

kecewa...tluka....
itulah perasaan yg ku alami smpai saat ini,
dsana kau bahgia dsini aku menderita,
senyuman ku bkn bmksud aku bahgia,
tapi senyuman ku menyimpan seribu satu rahsia,
hanya empunya badan sahaja yg tau.

~k@t@ pUj@nGg@~

kata pujangga????
kata pujangga 1 statmnt yg pendek tp mmbwa seribu satu mksud.
yupz...saya suka buat tu...
sblum tdur pasti byk ilham aka idea yg muncul dlm benak fikiran,
utk dkongsi bsama dalam FB.
satu hari satu kata2 pujangga dkongsi bsama,
xblh lebih nnti xda STOK utk hari esk...hohoho...

apa yg dlihat tu lah yg dkongsi,
pa yg d'alami itu lah ilham...
kadang kala minda jammed juga utk fkirkn kata pujangga nie,
tp tu lah dia,
xnak seribu xnak seribu dalih???btul ke peribhsa tu...
lantak la...hohoho...

kadang2 kata2 pujangga tu mampu mnguris perasaan org,
tp pa kn daya itu hanya satu kebetulan ba,
jgn salah fhm sama aku ba,
aku ngak punya niat nak mnguris ati ko ba...
wahhhh b'ba2 dhujung..yuhuuuu

drpd ku update status yg agak kerapuan,
baik ku share smetink yg bguna kn2...
bravo..
*tepuk tgn......

~cInta~

cinta??cinta is love la..
satu perasan halus  yg muncul dsaat kita bsama seseorang,
satu perasaan yg sukar dgambarkn ketika bsama dia....

pengalaman lalu mengajar aku lebih bhati2 dlm soal hati n perasaan,
aku EGO kerna aku TAKUT,
hati yg luka adlh hati manusia bkn hati patung.

dgn hadir nya dirimu dalam hidup ku,
ku berasa sungguh bahagia kerna telah melengkapi hidup ku,
ku sangka ku berada dalam musim BUNGA,
rupanya aku berada dalam musim LURUH,
kau pergi meninggalkan aku plahan disini,
tanpa sebarang kata.

jika niat mu hanya utk mluka,
baik xpayah hulurkn salam pcintaan,
kerna niat mu sangat TIDAK ikhlas.

hari ini kau mlukai hati n perasaan ini,
esk lusa siapa tahu hati mu juga dlukai,
dsaat itu usahlah kau bpaling pada aku.

~k@w@n~

kawan???
kawan bolh jd lawan kn...tp xpa..
saya terima dgn ikhlas andai kata dia xpunya jdoh bkwan dgn sya...yuhuuuu
ari ni dia mencari saat dia perlukn,
esk lusa dia pegi secara senyap tanpa kita sedari,
saat kita sedar dia melangkah pergi,
dia muncul kembali mmbwa muka kecian,
saat itu hati kita terima dia kembali sbg seorang kawan,'
saat kita terima dia kembali paduhal,
ada muslihat semuanya,
mengapa n mengapa harus begini...

psahabatan harus punya keikhlasan,kejujuran,
bukan saja dalam pcintaan tapi psahabatan juga,
kalo mmg xsudi,
jgn hulurkn salam psahabatan,
kerna itu hanya melukan perasaan.

byk2 luka,
luka pada hati sukar dpulihkn,
sedangkan luka pada anggota badan yg len meninggalkn parut,
inikan pula pada hati.

saya kecewa punya sahabat seperti awak,
tapi saya pendamkn saja kekecewaan saya,
bukan xmau jujo tp saya terlalu menjaga perasaan awk,
sehingga saya abaikan perasaan saya sendiri

~crush~

crush???aka admire....yuhuuu
i tink i got crush aka admire...
i tink la...
8 tiz moment i tink i dun wan get involve heart feeling...wooo broken eng...hoho...
wen talk bout heart,
our heart may beat faster or slow rite...
fast bcoz u totally fall in love wif her or him..
slow bcoz u re hurt..u get fobia rite....
tat wat kol LOVE GAME....
love actuallt lke a game,
u wil addct once u fall in love,
n ur love as been accp....
i close my heart 2 fall in love,
let i 8mire tat guy onli...
hohoho..
hey u....
u re my crush..yuhuuuu

~virus~

virus??hoho..
yupz..it virus topic..
virus cinta la...aiyooooo....
bru ysterday i can smile from deep of my heart,
laughing jz da way i am,
after wat had happen in my life...
it difficult 2 wake up,
once u re fall rite,
it need a lot of time...
huh...finally everythng was recover..ehe2...
ap wif my life rite now...
my life without man as my bofie....
if laz time i can b single for 1 year + y not now can..
so i choice 2 b single 4 2 year 1st..let try...ahhahaha
let everything clean n clear 1st...
wat had happen in da past really hurt me,
n give a lot of lesson 2 myself...
yupz..tat totally rite...
okie then..
clap hand 1 2 3..
opzzzz finish oredi da story..
wil b continue in nex few days kot..ehe2..
daaaaaa

~h@t3~

hate??aka benci???
yupz..tat wat i feel rite now...
everything bcoz of 1 person..
tat person is AMC...
almost 3 month oredi but i can't 4get bout him...
everythng bkam worse when i buat dri merajuk...
actually is not merajuk but BALAS DENDAM...waaaahhhh..
yupz...it totally rite..more 2 balas dendam...
dlu he layan me ala kdar so now tme me 2 lyan him ala kadar oso la..
do i CARE???of course la no...
no 2nd chance..he not deserve it...
i wil let him go wif his new WIFEY/GFIE or watever name...
pendek ceta let he go wif his love....
hw bout me???owhhh..no ned 2 worry....
i wil let myself bz wif my study..it more better....
my future in my hand...
yuhuuu

so rite now
NO more CAPITAL A....AMC...APAI...or wat so ever name tat had given...
daaaaa....
i wil continue my life without u...
u onli ruin my life...
btw tq 4 everythng..
u teach me 2 bkam strong gul....hohoho..
daaaa~

~blur~

tajuk ari ni blur...

yupz...totally blur...

y??

me n amc kep on mcg laz few days...

then on 31.05.13 nite..

he gve a WARNING 2 me...wooooo

he:dun drink COLA..beer n sowatever...

i'm  so tkejut wen rceive his mcg n he telling me lke tat...

y..coz he noe my health condition..

actually i knot drink COLA coz it contain lot of GAS...

wen i drink it i knot breath constantly..but nobody noe kcuali HIM...

but im so damn degil..so i CURI2 drink la..hohoho..

skali skala ba..wen i drink it..i ned drink lot of drinking wter 2 mke it balance...

stupid rite???unbliveble rite??but it FACTs....

we 2 debat during 31 nite...bru ystrday mcg...

y..he gve wrning but i mke dun noe..hoho..

dun wori la AMC i rmmber ba okie..yuhuuu..

jz kdding ba tat nite..sja je wan 2 disturb u..yuhuuu...

2nd case..

he watsap me..

he:u ikut mds kar??

me:nopz..

he:y??

me:kn  laz sem dh ikut mds..jz dftr jak...y

he: nothing..jz asking...

me:hmmm mds n pndftran both i din go...

he:hw la...

me:hw wat..

he:dftr la..

me:hmmm i m'out kn dri pom tat place..

he:ouh..bgs la...

*U C.....

wen amc say bgs la..tat muz b something wrong...hmmm wat u wan actually..i really100x totally knot understand u ba...ur stail show u stil take care of me...buttttttt...onli u noe da answer kn...i wish i noe answer 2 but it imposble rite..nvermnd..jz let it b...da onli thing i can do is jz stand here n love u...i need time 2 face ol tiz...

bout study..srry i cant fullfil my promise 2 stay n stdy 2gther wif u....i cant imgne wat i going 2 do...is better 4 me out pom tat place....

*blur sma da he stil syg me or not...ahahahahaa

*perasan skjap..yuhuuu

~photoshot~

okie...
topik ari ni photoshot..
hobi ku ialah ambik pic..
bla mud muncul HARUS/WAJIB/MESTY ambik photo
sbb???da photo wil b AMAZING...totally...
cba xda mud tba2 mbik camera,
then shot ur own pic msty len,
bla org tgk org dpt rasa empunya xda mud nak mbik pic..
okie ni bbrp photo...
as u can c,
my face changing rite..
itz depend on mud...

simple

simple smile

bad feeling

stop judge

waiting 4 prince charming

flower gul

cindrella version

c....

byk lagi photo nak dkongsi tp xblh overdos..

ckup sudah ckup sdah ba..

xpelu byk2..

dun wori..

wlaupun wajah brubah org nya tetap sama okie...

hanya AKU yg satu dlm dunia ni,

no duplicate...

tq~

~b3l@j@r~

yeah2...
jom belajar bhs baru...yuhuuu
2minggu yg lepas kalo xslap,ku bljr bhsa bru...hoho..
bhasa pa tu??bhs sabah...yuhuuu
itu lah kelebihan bkwan dgn org sabah or mna2 bangsa..
kalo kita bkwan kta dpt bljr bhsa mereka...
jom...ni bbrpa KOLEKSI bhs yg sempat dpelajari...
cehwahhhh...
bkongsi maklumat ba..kalo xslh tlng TUNJUK ya...
smua org buat kslpan ba..
dri kslpn kta bljr utk mmbetulkn nya...kn2...
ba2..jom...

saya syg kamu> guminazo zou diau
oluo ginavo> sakit hati
kada ingka hoh> jgn mcm itu ba
au avasi> tidak bagus
iziau okon no izou sanganu,om iziau okon no iziau sanganu>
saya bukan milik awk,awk bkn mlik sya
pikouvangan tosuau> kami teman tp mesra
kopivosian dounsumodop>selamat malam
kopivosian dougo suab> selamat pagi

okie smpai sni sja ya...
ku punya SIFU aka GURU ngak ajar lagi sih...
skembalinya sifu ku...
nnti bljr sama2 okie...
blh ba kalo kau~

~@.m.C~

a.m.c????pa itu...
singkatan nma si DIA le...
nama dberi sngt la unik...yeah2..
mcm empuanya nya tp dgn sya LAGI unik okie..yuhuuu
ku kenal dia masa minggu orintasi gra2 kja bkump..
mulut mala jak bcakap...xpndai bhenti pnya adoi...
pening jga kepalak...da jak isu dbahas or dbangkang...aiyoooo....
msa mlm psbhan..tba2 dia ddk kat sblh..
wat derk jak..ok la tu..wel sya kn open minded...
then..he ask 4 hp num..ok la..open minded jga..
ba normal ba smua itu...xlogik..lantak la..

our pic msa mlm psmbhan

he mcg me lyan sja la..as a fwen ba..ndk salah itu ba...
open minded pple always tink positive tat show hw matured re they...
he keep on mcg..me lyan jak i din aspect anythng..
untl one nite he say..dun mcg anymore..later ur bf angry..
then i say..nopz..my bf wil not angry coz he now tat i am sosial gul...
few days then..
he:stop messanging...RESPECT ur bf..dun mcg other boi if u have bf..
apooooo.....panas/b'asap ati msa tu...adoi..hnya tuhan jak tauk...
so mmandngkn sakit ati i din EPLY his mcg..he keep on mcg but i din eply..
ya lah suka ati tembak org..spa sruh..
i wont do somethng tat hurt pple tat i love...
he kep on mcg..me GAGAHKN dri utk eply....
me:y u say lke tat...sakit ati tau x...i noe la who am i..i noe my status ba...i mcg u as my fwen not more..y u so serius...
he:srry..i tink we shuld stop mcg so tat i din hurt u more...
me mula gelabah..pndai jga ku gelabah..hohoho...
start pom moment me salu MNGALAH..yupz..seriusly...
a.m.c???nice/gud man/boy..yupz...seriusly....
y...coz..he take care of me...
wen i was sick..he remind me 2 eat medicne..
wahhh tiz part is sooo wooo...
he sanggup go farmasi..xpa dkat ngn asrama llaki ba...
on da pon..i was cried...ahahaha..malu nye...
my lutut sakit..skit gler...i jln TEMPANG..hoho..
in 2 days gra2 men basikal..adoi...
lma ba stop play bsikal skali men 3 bukit..mna x pdh ini...hoho..

                           dear,
                          A.M.C

                         u noe wat..

                         u so damn romantik n swit...

                         y n y...

                         u let me brrow ur BBY while i dun hve hp..

                         u give ur SYG although its urs..

                         u give ur RING although its urs...

                         u give ROSARY although its urs..

                        anything tat u give 2 me,

                         everythng urs,

                         tat make me love u more each second,

                         but now it onli a memory...

                          

                   *i wil take care ol ur thing...dun wori onli we noe...

setia vs curang

woooo...
setia vs curang...nang bagus topik...
setia...bsma/bcinta dgn 1 org shaja...
curang..bsma/bcinta LEBIH dri 1 org...
dalam dunia ni smua penah bcinta kn...
mustahil XPNAH..kalo xpnah..
akan tiba masa...
saat itu BSIAP SEDIA la..bkn koman kawad la..
siap sedia dri segi fzkal n mental...
fzkal...bla psgn mudah jatuh tgn..jeng2..BEWARE...
mental..mcm biasa..gaduh2..cemburu2..n byk lgi...
FACT:jgn bcinta msa mnuntut ilmu,SEBAB bla dh jtuh cinta msa itu,
adoi...smua keja xkna t'utama bla RIBUT mlanda..
mud nak stdy HILANG,
jgn kata mud stdy..mud MKN..MNDI smua nya hilang...
xpcya ya...jom pegi buat EXPRMEN...
then u wil noe da result...jeng2..
ssah nak cri psg yg betul100x setia dlm dunia,
kalo da pun hanya SCUBIT mcm scubit garam kn...
wel itu lah manusia..xpnah asa puas...
bla dia DCURANG mula la LANCARkn misi mmbalas dendam...
kita kena INGAT...
xsemua yg mndampangi kita adlh sama SPECIES,
jgn kerna SEJARAH hdup mu,
maka kmu ingin bls dndam...
kalo nak bls dndam kamu bls dndam dkat org tu je kn...
*evil mind*...hohoho...
hmmm xpyh la nak MISI BBALAS2 dndam ni..xbaik...+dosa...
cehwahhh baik nye aku..hohoho...
bialah kn saja biapun sakit hnya kita n NYA jak tahu..
INGAT..pa kita buat ari ni akn dbalas kmudian ari...jeng2..
so better dun do it..jz let it go....
pengalaman mngajar kta supaya LEBIH BHATI2..
bkn djln raya HARUS bhati2 tp sgala pa yg kta lakukn...

~slm syg~
du~

w@t @ l!fE

fullamak....
lma dh xbdating dgn blog..
mulakn khdupan yg bru so agak kesibukan gue sih...minta maaf ya...
mmg pyah nak bdiri kat sni jaoh dri fmly...tp pa kn dmi msa dpan...
cinta??love???
he is my love..a.m.c...
my swit heart..but it onli a history....
HE is apai...i kol him apai..dun noe y..suddly....
we 2 got blog...
http://biengekstory.blogspot.com/2013_04_01_archive.html
tiz 2 our blog...
his idea so i 4llow jak jnji him ap...
yupz..everythng wooo so WONDERFUL N AWESOME...
but now...hanya tnggal knangan..
everythng GONE jz lke a wave..
if we could not stand it,we wil fal down..
lke tat our rlship...
everythng change early march...
but wat 2 do..he not mine..he not my jdoh so jz let it go...
by letting him go it really worst feeling ever...but its okie...
jz let him go rather than asked him 2 stay wif me but no love between us...
ohhhh no..i wil not do tat...
HE??jz a nice man/boy..yupz...truly...
hw nice he is onli me n HIM noe...
but hw nice tat person his FART muz b smelly kn...hohoho...
his FAMLY oredi bout our rlship me..
even MEET okie..so far so gud..no yet meet his mami..adoi...i cant imgne..hoho
we start kapel on 16.12.12....
we end it 24.04.13...
wooo c i can rmmber wat hppen..wooo...
c tiz some vdeo he do 4 me b4 everythng change...

he watsap me...
he told me tat in 5 years he wil b mine..
re u sure...so kep it in ur mind n heart then....
he so damn AWESOME..SWIT...ROMANTIK person...
i wil nver regret fall in love wif u....
a.m.c always in my heart n mind..

sncere: ngek~